Do confess it is very hard for me to give away my old clothes, even when I haven’t worn them for years. “Maybe I will need them…” Some of those clothes I have reused. This has given me a lousy excuse to hold all of them. The truth is, that if I had given the clothes away, I would not have even remembered that I had them at all. I must say that having all those old clothes hasn’t stopped me to buy the new ones. The result is that my partner owns one-third of the closet and I two-third, plus all my clothes are out of the closet. If I could move the closet walls, I would probably do it secretly. I am laughing at my self. It is embarrassing. This is how I chunk everything; not only food or clothes, but I also chunk my wishes. I hold on my old dreams, while creating the new ones.

I don’t know does other countries also have it, but in Estonia the Thursdays what comes before New Moon, are called something as “Loss Thursday” (22.12.2011). On that day it is possible to throw away all the things what you don’t need and the secret is that they won’t come back. For example there is a saying that you should start your diet on that Thursday and it will last.

I believe it is not a coincidence that this “Loss Thursday” comes before the creation of New Moon when you can wish new things. In order, that something new could come, you need to throw away the old ones. I understand why it is so comfortable to hold on your old things or wishes, because they have served you, they have created your identity. It is so easy and good to identify yourself through them. But nevertheless we want also the new things. I believe that wanting something new is really humane, basic. It is a wish to develop, to grow and to move on. If we stand still, we are dead. What could be more important in this life, than to live?

This “Loss Thursday” gives us a possibility to throw away everything and everybody who does not serve us anymore. I know it can be frightening. But we don’t lose something we win something. We make room for something (someone) what (who) helps us to choose to be happy. There are no wrong choices, only thoughts what are making them bad. “Loss Thursday” in December is particularly special, it becomes just days before the West New Year. Then it has double power. It is hard to be with a heavy stomach, but it is harder to be with a heavy conscience.